So today at work a guy with a big fro gave himself a haircut in the bathroom. And a cracky woman peed on the floor. In the middle of the store.

Just another day. No big deal or anything...

But now I'm going to a pizza party with Tim's family and Matt! Yay!

And I'm completely dreadless! Pictures soon. Ciao!

So it's been quite the time since I have spent any time on a computer. But now we're set up in our new place so yay. It's really wonderful here and I can't wait to get everything set up and have a partay!

But it's been a really LONG week. In part for the usual moving reasons. Like working for days on end packing and cleaning and plannering and so forth.

But then Shauna, who was supposed to be our roommate, fucking backed out on us at the last minute for no responsible reason. Basically she showed up to help us unpack on the 31st (she was supposed to move in on the 2nd), had a freakout about how small her room was (which wasn't exactly a secret as we'd all done the tour of the place together), and then had to "think about it". Which was complete and total bullshit. She'd told us that she would for sure be living with us until the end of summer. And basically as soon as she started freaking I knew she was going to run away like she always does. So now she's living in Leduc, a shitty little town outside of Edmonton, with her Mom. What a dick. She even tried to get out of paying for April rent but I put my foot down.

So there goes another best friend. Which is typically my dilemma but I won't get too into that. I just have an attraction to self-centered, irresponsible free-spirits. Ugh...

But me and Matt are okay. We're going to be really fucking broke for a few months. But we'll survive. We may get another roommate. It'll all work out.

But I'm still really hurt. When you misjudge your friend this badly, it makes you wonder what else you've misunderstood.

And on that note, here's my postsecret choice for this week:

Ugh I have too much to do! I feel like we're really behind on packing but at the same time I really don't want to do more work after work. ;/ I'm just really lazy.

Not too much of interest has been happening lately. Just working and getting shit ready for moving...which is happening on Monday!! So yeah I'm not really going to have too much to say for the next little while except for stressful shit that I can really do without writing about. I can't wait until this is all over and I can settle back down into some sort of fun-ness. I miss hanging out with friends and spending money.

Oh and my sister is coming to visit at the end of April. Yay!

Okay. Work time. I think I might treat myself to chinese food tonight though. Hmm...

I took the day off today because I woke up not breathing. I felt so desperate for air yet had to concentrate on my breathing for like an hour to finally have it feel natural again. I felt kind of choked yesterday morning too. But apparently it's just that I'm really congested. Weirdness though. I don't remember ever having this happen when I have a cold/allergies before. At least the doctor gave me lots of free drugs. ;P

Otherwise nothing much is happening. I have way too many things to accomplish before we move. Ugh...the place is a mess again even though we cleaned on Saturday, we still need to change addresses over, and we need to acquire a mover. But I just want Matt to do it. Because I'm a lazy baby. I never really understood why my family would make fun of me and call me a princess and "baby Lindsay" (which is actually funny because my sister says it in the best cooing voice) but now I think I do. Can't I just have Paris Hilton's job already? And by job I mean lavish amounts of excess with little to no responsibilities.

Okay enough whining. I'm sick. I'm going to use this day to my advantage. As in I will now re-commence lazing.

I couldn't decide between these two postsecrets for this week so I'm just going to post them both.





I'm having kind of a rough weekend. It started off really great with me and Matt going out for a snack and movie for our anniversary. We went and saw Definitely, Maybe and I had to hold in my lame sobs at the end. We both really liked it. Matt's really cool in the way that he has an extremely high tolerance for chick flicks. You basically have to if you're going to spend a lot of time with me I suppose. It's not that I don't like other genres, because I really do, but I watch a lot of "girly" stuff. Whatever.

We coined a new term. "Hor" for hormonal, except used as a noun. It's providing a lot of laughs. I'm having a hard time this weekend though because of going through all my things to pack up and get rid of. I can't really explain it but it tears me up a bit to make decisions and not just keep everything and stay the same. While I'm completely fascinated by change in all of its facets, I fear it like nothing else.

Ugh. So often I just want it to all fade away into a dream that I can doze about in forever.

So one more day of work and then I have a three day weekend! Yay!! ;D Also tomorrow is me and Matt's eight year anniversary. Don't know yet whether we should go out for fancy dinner tomorrow night or not...we're kind of low on money but it seems lame to not celebrate with something special. We shall see I suppose. Spontaneity is usually best.

I felt so shitty at work today. I was having crazy sinus headaches and sneezy allergies. I think I'm allergic to people. Or at least their perfume. Gross. Sometimes a little touch of essential oil or perfume is lovely but let's not bathe in it kids. Especially the cheap shit...

Okay well that's about all that's currently going down. I'm almost done taking out my dreads, I just have the lower back half of my head now. ;) I can't wait for Tara to cut and style it! And to finally dye it a decent colour!

So Spencer has leukemia. I've complained about him on here once before. We don't really get along. So when I saw that he wasn't at work on Friday morning I felt pretty good about it. Until I found out he was in the hospital getting tests and then chemo.

Crap. Even though we have our issues with eachother, I still feel really bad for him. He has the most passive kind you can have so he should be okay but he'll be on meds for the rest of his life.

It's weird to feel so much for someone when in general you only feel irritation for them. I think part of this feeling is guilt over being happy that he wasn't at work this weekend. Ugh. Is that screwed up? Anyways he should be back to work sometime next week if things go well.


I had another (milder) freakout last night but I think it's just my pms hormone garbage. Matt was so sweet through the whole thing and stayed up late with me, talked with me, held me and was basically just the best boyfriend ever. Often I don't give him enough credit. He's so perfect for me that I get scared and act like an asshole half the time. But things are good. Really good. ;)

I'm going to take this week to decide how I really feel about my job. Maybe until the end of next week because then I won't be hormonal. But I just feel full of blah or irriation lately when I'm working. And it's definitely not my co-workers or much of anything really. I just feel like I need a change. I've begun to stagnate there. I need to grow. So we'll see what happens. I wouldn't want to start a new job until June anyways because there's a bunch of time off I want to take in the next couple months. ;P

Blah. I wish Matt was home already.

This is my favourite postsecret this week:



So last night I completely freaked out again and ended up scratching my arm. Which I hate because it's stupid and because I already have eczema there so I really don't need the extra discomfort. It's not really a big deal but it is at the same time. You know?

My friend Amy is not understanding that I'm really busy/crazy lately. She's been on me about hanging out so I agreed to maybe have breakfast tomorrow and now she's making it sound like she's coming over to hang out mid-morning...Um no. Breakfast out. For like an hour. At breakfast time. So that I can get shit done. Ugh...There's so many people that I would like to hang out with lately but seriously. I have way too many things to do and way too little emotional stability right now.

My Dad wrote me this lovely email a couple of days ago. He parallelled his life at my age to mine and gave me encouraging words about discovering what I want out of life and going for it. He's kind of an introverted person who is closed with his feelings so it meant so much to me that I cried when I read the email. I need to call him and thank him. Although I have no idea how to say how much it meant to me. Guess I can be kind of closed too.

Things I want for my birthday:
- a cat or a bunny
- rollerblades plus gear
- a keyboard/synthesizer
- an ipod shuffle and new earphones

Ok enough randomness and procrastinating.

I saw a six-fingered handprint on the bus window today. I swear it wasn't a fake. Made me wonder a little about whoever put that there. Also print on the window? Gross.

Rough day today. Way too many customers including one douchey group who ordered six lattes in mugs and then made us remake half of them because they were apparently cold. I got really pissed and practically burnt one portion of milk yet that satisfied them. Jerks. Go burn your own milk at home. It took us over like ten minutes to get some peoples drinks done for them after that. Ugh...

But now it's my weekend!

My hectic weekend of sorting, packing, and errands.

I need a vacation that is way too slow in coming. ;/

I've been a completely boring slob the past few days. Feeling gross, doing dumb things like watching old music videos from the 90s on youtube and not sleeping. Then working again and again. Tonight I took out a few more of my dreads. I haven't worked on it in over a week and my friends and co-workers are totally mocking me for my half and half hairdo. It's a bitch to style so I basically look like a crack addict. ;P

Work tomorrow and then the weekend. During which I will work on sorting through my shit for packing. Ugh...I'm such a slug though...

Ok naked boy bed time. ;)

I kind of felt like walking out of my job today. Our till system kept continually freezing or crashing and people are dicks. Well not really. But they can be really stupid and annoying.

I just really need a vacation. Or to win the lottery. But probably both.

Now I will do some laundry and dishes, have a shower, and later go have dinner at Tara's. And hopefully that will make it all better.

At least until it all starts again tomorrow fucking morning.

I may or may not need to drink and smoke cigars before that.

It's been a mind-numbingly busy week. So I'm just going to make a quick post to fill in.

Highlights include:

- Found a new place with Matt and Shauna! It's on the corner of Renfrew and Hastings and has laminate flooring plus ensuite laundry and a dishwasher. It's also beautifully new. Only cons are that it's much smaller than where I'm currently living plus an extra person so I will have to get rid of much stuff. Which could actually be a really good thing.

- Had two emotional breakdowns two days in a row. Because I've been madly stressed out for the past month and it came to a head. I'm doing okay now. I've cut out some stressors and given myself more time to deal with other stressors later. I just need to keep my focus and only on one thing at a time.

I've had a bunch of fun watching many great movies and hanging out with my awesome friends. So that's pretty much what's currently keeping me sane. I feel a bit on the edge but I've decided to make a new start in perspectives for March. It's all about work hard play hard. Should be good, if tiring.

Now to wash a million dishes as step one.

So I still feel kind of sick. Bleck. Carla wanted me to take her 7:00 shift for her in exchange for my 9:00 and I feel bad about saying no. But I already feel like I'm going to be completely useless tomorrow. I forsee burning myself and talking like a bumbling idiot to customers. Ugh...

Shauna came over this evening and we called and e-mailed a bunch of places for rent. We have two appointments for tomorrow so hopefully those will go well. Or at least one of them seeing as I only need one home.

Also me and Matt had a blow-up today about money. It's been coming for awhile but we were actually able to solve the problem really quickly with no hard feelings. I'm really proud of us. We've been working hard at being more effective communicators and it's paying off. ;)

Well now that I've fulfilled my cheezy journaling quota for the day I'm going to lie in bed and read about Audrey Hepburn.

Gotta love how the first day that I feel sick this year is also the day they start doing work on the roof of my building. I am so tired and it is far too loud. ;(

Just had an emotional breakdown over a subway sandwich. Except it wasn't really about that.

I'm feeling pretty low right now. But I'll be okay.

I really want a drink though. Ugh.

So I went out drinking with Matt, Shauna, and Stamatis last night. Which was actually really silly of me as I promised myself that I would spend no such money on frivolity until after I had moved and re-established some sort of savings in April. So dang. Also I am turning into an old woman who falls asleep drunkenly far earlier than anyone else. Oops.

Just finished watching this. In all seriousness, you should watch it too. It blew my mind open just that much more. It takes about as long as a movie to watch. Basically because it is a movie.

http://zeitgeistmovie.com/

And here is my favourite Sunday secret this week:

So looks like I'm closing tonight now. Although I still woke up early. Bleck.

Yesterday I basically had a repeat of the day before. Mostly because Cody is still obsessed with Jojo's Fashion Show and I'm still obsessed with American Idol. Oh the shame!!

I've discovered that I'm really allergic to either or both of two chemicals that I need to use fairly regularly at work. Which sucks. I'm trying to figure out what type of gloves to wear so that I can stop having rashes down my forearms. I've mostly solved my echzema pinkie problem however. So at least I have that. Damn sensitive skin.

Well I don't really have much to say now. Not that I really had anything to say in the first place. La dee da this is going to be a long day I think...

So yeah. Kind of suck at posting. Hey, I think I'll do livejournal again!...Ugh.

But oh well. I've been pretty busy. Here is my life in summary.

Saturday: Went to work. While at work witnessed a fight between Spencer (self-righteous christian supervisor who I have trouble getting along with) and Bruno (my friend Mikhaila's crush...not too sure why). Basically I called Bruno a bullshitter after he went on and on at me, he swore at me in a joking way, Spencer got mad, Bruno questioned Spencer's sex life, I told Bruno to apologize, Bruno pretty much got kicked out of the store. So all in all a regular Saturday at my work.
After work me and Matt checked out a house that was not a winner and we went over to Kat and Mike's for a really yummy turkey dinner. Good times.

Sunday: Completely uneventful laziness.

Monday: Woke up at the crack of dawn with Matt to meet up with Cody at the Burnaby Value Village for 50% off day. We had so much fun hunting and scored big time with amazingly cheap finds. I left them in the middle of it to meet up with Shauna so that we could go on our roasting tour. Basically we are trying to get a raise at work and it involves going on a field trip through the coffee roasting location of JJ Bean (where I work). It was fairly interesting and afterwards we went and had breakfast at a diner nearby where Matt and Cody met up with us. Cody randomly bought a bike off someone on the street so she took that home while me, Matt and Shauna headed to Gastown to go browsing and antique shopping. We bought a few fun things, ate yummy sandwiches, and parted ways.

Tuesday: I worked and went out for cinnamon buns at Sally's (I think that's what it's called anyways) with Tara, Carla and Amanda. It took forever to get there but it was amazingly worth it. Me and Tara hung out for a bit after we parted with Carla and Amanda. Mikhaila broke her shoulder while out snowboarding and is now kind of screwed for work. ;(

Yesterday: I worked. Saw poor Mikhaila with a giant sling. She's going to try to work this weekend but I don't know how it's going to go... You kind of need both arms to do anything in this job and it's her dominant arm that's hurt. So that really sucks. I feel really badly for her. ;(
After work Cody came over and we all ate dinner together, played Jojo's Fashion Show which is amazing!, watched American Idol and worked on picking out more of my dreads. It's coming along pretty well and I'd say that more than half of them are out now. I'm in massive need of a dye job and style though. Ugh.

And yeah. Right now I'm just about to get ready for the day because I work 12-8. It's such a beautiful day out though. I wish I could go for a walk along the sea wall. ;( Enough complaining. I'm out.

Just got home from work. I did pretty well today; didn't get the blues until about 7 hours in. Usually I start getting bored and tired after about 5 or 6. Today was Bree's birthday and we all surprised her with an ice cream cake and sang really loudly so that the whole cafe was watching. Bree is a regular customer who spends a few hours twice a day in the cafe. She is the sweetest lady, very lovely grandma-ish. ;) So that was fun.

Now I'm kind of bored. Which is funny, because I was bored at work too. I wish there was something to do but I have to work at 7:30 tomorrow morning. Also I am poor. Lame.

Spencer tried to get me to work at 6 tomorrow but now he has to. Ha ha. I'm not even going to get into this one, it's just nice when arrogant people get kicked in the ass by karma. Especially when they're probably the closest thing to your nemesis.

Whatever. I'm going to watch tv. Blah.

Oh yeah. I had the weirdest conversation with Jack today in which I attempted to give him relationship advice. On how and when to break up with your longterm girlfriend because you want to fuck other people. Really not my forte. But I guess no matter what the situation, being honest with someone when you have completely different ideas on how things should be is essential.

A few years ago I would have just written him off as a prick. Yet now, although I really don't agree with his choice or opinion, I can still listen to him and count him as a friend. Weird. I guess I'm uptight in new places now or something.

K bye.

New journal. Pretty much the same as the old one. So not really much reason to switch over yet I did anyways. Because I can.

So far today I have:
    -Went out for coffee and breakfast with Matt.
    -Assembled little valentines for my co-workers/friends
    -Cleaned out the bathroom and threw out what amounts to a whole (yet old and disgusting) cosmetics department.

I still have about a million things to clean in this apartment. I'm currently living in a pigsty and it's really getting me down. Also me and Matt are hoping to move out with Shauna for April 1st. Many things to do. Sigh.

I'm in the middle of removing my dreadlocks via conditioner and much combing. It's taking a really long time but with great results. Although filling an entire garbage can with old hair is kind of a trip.

Happy Valentine's day or Commercialism day. Whichever you happen to celebrate/act like a crazy ranter about.

I'm back. ;)